In all honesty I wouldn’t mind if my heart stop beating and my breathing got cut short.
This is what I did on Le snap chat today #Subzero #MortalKombat #Fanart #snapchat #me
All the thoughts are rushing through my body I don’t feel anymore and I’m feeli like I’m going to be a washed up whore I believed everyone when they said the loved me and slept with the boys who said I was pretty and they liked me I’m stupid and girl my life is as fucked up and pointless as it gets I’d follow the path I had once before but it’s torn up and fucked up from my regrets I don’t want to be a live anymore because whats the point when you don’t even know how to feel anymore it’s not anyone elses fault but my own I got better but it always comes back it never goes away for anyone and it can’t one attempt turns into thoughts of many and I have met plenty still going back to this disgusting place filled with hatred and disgrace of themselves wanting to end it all like they had tried many times before the thought of my dead body lying on that floor again seems comforting only this time I want to wake up I don’t want to be scared and call for help I mean whats the point of living when you don’t feel a live anymore what is the point of looking forward when you’ve taken all the options and fucked them up I have no where to go and even when I’m home I ketch the sound of my own words repeating I wish I where home just reminding me I have nothing. I don’t feel at all I don’t feel anything absolutely nothing so I why why am I still breathing why am I still here why am I put on here like a hollow body with no life can I just taken out of this I wouldnt call it misery or sadness or really anything but blank I’ve look everywhere and still nothing and I seriously just feel like a waisted life. I wish I could give it up I wish I could give it to someone who would enjoy a chance to live so much more I wish i could give it up to that child who is only three years old and is dying from a disease but I can’t which is the saddest thing ever because I seriously can’t stand being like this and living like this and not knowing how to change things around I really am better dead and not breathing then being dead and alive but lifeless.